Not obsessed

Ahh...Harry Potter. Yes, I heart the Harry Potter series. I can no longer try and hide my inner Harry Potter geek. I managed to get the new book without waiting more than an hour total. And I managed to read it within 24 hours. Soooo good! I think J.K. Rowling's writing style has matured and improved... maybe that's partially because Harry himself matured...

On other matters: I haven't gotten a bartending job. I highly doubt I ever will. That class could be considered a waste of money... except I thoroughly enjoyed it. I suppose I still could try and find a bartending job in New York... think I might spend more time finding a good work study job. Or babysitting. I think I'm developing motherly instincts.

Talking

The Talking theory really does work. Emotional breakdown avoided. Score one for honesty. Zero for keeping feelings inside.

I had another urge to write a book. About the end of the world. I doubt it will emerge on written pages, like all my other ideas. However, I really like books about surviving after the world as we know it collapses. I think I have an interesting twist on that theme. Perhapse if I manage to avoid getting another job I will use my free time to sit down and at least try to make an outline.

Speaking of books... HARRY POTTER is coming out soon. I think I will do a reread of the series to prepare myself.
Also... read the Earth's Children series by Jane Auel. I just finished the first one, and it's super intruiguing.

It's funny how peoples view of a situation is changed when their individual position changes.

Example: Once you change from the beneficiary to the one who gets shafted, it stops being OK.

Though I don't really have a right to be angry, it still bothers me. Why didn't you try to consider the other position before? And listen to your own fucking argument. If your two friends are going to be happy, how could you want to stop it? Would it really be as bad as you say it will be? Not that it even matters any more.

"If we sleep together will it make us friends forever?"

Mira, Mira... what great words. I always knew I should give up feelings of lust and become a nun. Somehow, I've managed to alienate two of my close friends because my emotions don't listen to reason. So I think I will give up romantic thoughts for the summer. According to Lauren I need to focus on goals for my life. Like saving the world. Because knowing my own goals will make me less insecure about relationships, I guess.

So. Goals? I want to make time to do art. There's a sculpture idea that's been floating around in my head ever since the end of school. I also would love to do a painting and have it turn out well. I want to make my room clean. I have millions of pictures taking up space on my dresser that need to be organized and put into albums. I want to read a lot. I want to play frisbee.

The problem with these goals is I don't feel like I have time for them. Either I'm working, working out, or sleeping. That doesn't leave much time for doing things I want to do, because I also need to hang out with friends. I guess I should do more stay-at-home nights. Or sleep a lot less. Haha, like I'd ever give up sleep.

More Holes...

I got my belly button pierced. Sort of hypocritical, I know. I have made many comments in the past degrading belly button piercings. I've sorta had a change of heart. I guess getting my belly button pierced is a sorta fuck you to the idea that you have to be insanely skinny to show off your body. Except I don't think I'm the type to make that kind of statement. I guess I can become that person. I also think it's not quite the same thing to get your belly button pierced if you have lots of other piercings. I guess if I saw me, I wouldn't think "Oh, she's just another preppy girls" I'd have more of a "Awesome piercings" thing. It's still hypocritical though. No excuses!

I've been thinking about why I got my lip pierced. At the time I didn't really have a reason besides I kinda like them on other people, and I wanted to get something pierced. Now, I think that reason is enough. I like looking at the shape of people's lips, and I like when lip rings artfully bring attention to the lips. I'm not saying the lip ring necessarily makes my lips look better, but I'd like to think it causes the reaction I have when I see people with lip rings--"Ooo that's cool/attractive/hot" (depending on my mood and the person) I feel like I don't know many people who have that reaction, though. The most recent statement by an acquaintance was at the Reel Big Fish show. I saw a guy on stage with both sides pierced and I wanted to tell him I really liked them on him (of course I wasn't loud enough). When I told my friend that (he was wondering why I was trying to yell at the people on stage) he said "Oh, so he was twice as dumb". Thanks man. He was probably joking, but I'd still rather be around people who would agree with me that piercings can be damn hot.