Disconnected

I feel disconnected from people at school. Like I have friends I hang out with, but no one to really talk to. And I sometimes psych myself out and think no one really wants to hang out with me, I just show up to parties and no one objects. I suppose that's partly my fault, being "reserved".
Room selection sucked today. I thought my number was semi OK. It was 190. I heard later that was out of 242. But anyway, I thought getting a single in Hewitt wouldn't be a problem. When I got to the James Room, though, they announce that only doubles in Elliot and the Manhattan School of Music are left. What fuck? Elliot is a terrible place to live, and the Manhattan School of Music doesn't have kitchen facilities. Plus, my group never talked about the possibility of doubles, really. So I filled out a Guaranteed Housing Wait List form. Now I have no idea where I'm living, and I won't find out till August. This could be a good thing. Maybe if I don't get a single, I'll get a good roommate and we will be best friends. Maybe I'll get into a room in a suite, and I will have an excellent kitchen. There's even a small chance I could end up in Columbia housing. Nothing is worse than Elliot doubles, right? Worse case scenario: I'll end up in Elliot next year anyway, except I waited longer to find out. At least right now I have hope of getting a single.